I'm not really sure what to say, but since my last post, I've figured a few things out.
1. Having high standards is not a crime.
2. Sometimes things end quicker than you expect them to.
3. The future is not such a scary thing.
4. Pride cheated me out of a lot this year.
5. Like friends, experiences, better grades, etc.
6. God's around, and he loves me. Just like He's there for and loves everyone else.
7. Change is not always a bad thing.
8. Self-Importance is not a good use of time. (I'm working on this one).
9. People will sometimes surprise you.
10. Anything worth having in life does not come easy.
Yay thinking about cliches while not writing my essays during English class!
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
Thursday, January 1, 2009
What I learned in Good Ol' 2008
1. I learned that opening up too quickly with someone is not a good thing all the time.
2. I learned that the term "hooking up" is purely contextual and has a plethora of meanings.
3. I learned that even a small car accident in which neither party was hurt to any extent is still scary.
4. I learned that being single on Valentine's Day is the way to go.
5. I learned that just because you make big mistakes, it doesn't make you a bad person.
6. I learned that life is short.
7. I learned that alcohol is not something I should consume while smoking. (DUH)
8. I learned that alcohol is not something I should consume again until I'm 21. (DUH)
9. I learned that smoking is bad for me. (DUH)
10. I learned that it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all, but I'm still trying to figure out why the measure of love is loss?
11. I learned that when my money runs out, some of my friends do too.
12. I learned that Chai is the hardest drink for me to fix right.
13. I learned that I'm a terrible navigator and I can't go anywhere outside of Midland without calling and asking for directions at least once.
14. I learned that it is socially unacceptable to not have texting, but as long as my parents are paying my phone bill, I won't have it.
15. I learned that even though you may go for three years without seeing your best friend, when you do finally get together, it's like y'all were never apart.
16. I learned that it IS a problem when your car looks like a tornado went through the back seat.
17. I learned that the grieving process takes a long time.
18. I learned that no matter how well you know someone, they can still surprise you.
19. I learned that I have some work to do this year.
20. I learned who my real friends are and who I can trust.
21. I learned to be more careful with my heart, body, and mind.
22. I learned that no man is a failure who has friends.
23. I learned that when I get to college, the upperclassmen are going to dig my taste in music.
24. I learned that I definitely want to go to college.
and lastly...
25. I learned that people are placed in your life for a reason. They walk out for reasons, and they walk back in for reasons too. The reasons are never clear, and sometimes it's better that way, but you never know when someone may pop back in or pop out. Appreciate the time you have with them.
[Insert cliche's that make me sound super shallow]
Happy 2009! I can't wait to see what this year brings! :D
2. I learned that the term "hooking up" is purely contextual and has a plethora of meanings.
3. I learned that even a small car accident in which neither party was hurt to any extent is still scary.
4. I learned that being single on Valentine's Day is the way to go.
5. I learned that just because you make big mistakes, it doesn't make you a bad person.
6. I learned that life is short.
7. I learned that alcohol is not something I should consume while smoking. (DUH)
8. I learned that alcohol is not something I should consume again until I'm 21. (DUH)
9. I learned that smoking is bad for me. (DUH)
10. I learned that it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all, but I'm still trying to figure out why the measure of love is loss?
11. I learned that when my money runs out, some of my friends do too.
12. I learned that Chai is the hardest drink for me to fix right.
13. I learned that I'm a terrible navigator and I can't go anywhere outside of Midland without calling and asking for directions at least once.
14. I learned that it is socially unacceptable to not have texting, but as long as my parents are paying my phone bill, I won't have it.
15. I learned that even though you may go for three years without seeing your best friend, when you do finally get together, it's like y'all were never apart.
16. I learned that it IS a problem when your car looks like a tornado went through the back seat.
17. I learned that the grieving process takes a long time.
18. I learned that no matter how well you know someone, they can still surprise you.
19. I learned that I have some work to do this year.
20. I learned who my real friends are and who I can trust.
21. I learned to be more careful with my heart, body, and mind.
22. I learned that no man is a failure who has friends.
23. I learned that when I get to college, the upperclassmen are going to dig my taste in music.
24. I learned that I definitely want to go to college.
and lastly...
25. I learned that people are placed in your life for a reason. They walk out for reasons, and they walk back in for reasons too. The reasons are never clear, and sometimes it's better that way, but you never know when someone may pop back in or pop out. Appreciate the time you have with them.
[Insert cliche's that make me sound super shallow]
Happy 2009! I can't wait to see what this year brings! :D
Monday, December 29, 2008
It's so cold when he's not around...
I float until I sink and get swallowed up.
It's so cold when he's not around...
I wait for him to come home and tell me I'll be fine.
-- Motion City Soundtrack
I'm HAPPY!!!
It's so cold when he's not around...
I wait for him to come home and tell me I'll be fine.
-- Motion City Soundtrack
I'm HAPPY!!!
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Yay Christmas
I bought all my presents for my friends...
and I figured out where I want to go to school..
ALL for under $30!
and I figured out where I want to go to school..
ALL for under $30!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
My Skeletons
In case you can't tell what they say... Let me type them out for you.
1. I am a pessimistic, self-loathing narcissist.
2. I am about 90% sure my depression/anger issues/mood swings can be attributed to my menstrual cycle.
3. I wish I could eat like a normal person.
4. I lie compulsively over stupid stuff to sound more interesting.
5. I love older men. My last date was 10 years older than me!
6. I am so afraid of getting my wisdom teeth removed because of all the pain I'll be in. I HATE PAIN!
7. A normal person would react happily to good news. I get angry or upset. WTF is wrong with me?
8. Blood tests say I have no imbalance... WTF is wrong with me?
9. I got waitlisted by my dream school. I TOLD EVERYONE ELSE I GOT ACCEPTED!
10. I wish God would take me off hold and tell me what's going on.
11. I'm afraid my parents have given up on me, just like my birthparents.
12. The one person I thought I had a future with TORE MY HEART UP and will not take the pieces off of the bottom of his shoes. HE CHANGED ME FOR THE WORSE.
13. To me, reaching out to people = pulling teeth!
14. I am TERRIFIED of getting hurt... Again.
15. God's supposed to make me HAPPY, but I'm NOT.
16. 164 lbs. 5'4". Size 12/13 (prolly 14 now). I AM FAT.
17. I hate crying. It makes people think I'm weak... or worse.. vulnerable.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
The Truth
No matter how much makeup I put on, I will still be ugly.
No matter how many layers of clothes I put on, I will still be fat.
No matter how many stupid jokes I tell, I will still never make the right people laugh.
No matter how much studying I do, I will still be dumb.
No matter how much I try to be happy, I will always be sad.
No matter how much I try my best, my parents will always be prouder of my brother.
No matter how much sarcasm I use, I will always hurt the wrong person.
No matter how much I reach out to people, I will always get burned.
No matter how much I try, I will always be second best.
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